About Me 

There are things that I love and do. Things that never come so easily but hard to let go. The past has become a big part of me, it shaped me to live more, having so much opportunities this time than before. Having a new mindset. To live life that is meant to be, enjoyed and be thanked for. For who I am not to enjoy life freely given. Who am I not to soar to new heights. When His love lifts me up, more than I thought I’d be. More than the beauty of summers and the waking of dawn. More than a heart beat is this life to offer. So why not be happy! This is what I came here for, to live in His love, to live in his presence.

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Him?!

Her walk was slow towards someone familiar. 

His height, his bulit, the one that’s been embeded on her mind.

That offish look that seems to stand out.

He is just that familiar.

That smile he wore on his perfect face as he gaze beyond the evening horizon .

That’s someone she knew?

But why is this man so different?

She’s getting closer now to this somewhat Medieval looking Prince, he felt her closer and he slowly turns around.

No doubt it’s him!

Just one look on that
pretty face.

Bearing that usual smile that penetrates in every fiber of her being.

She  was captivated, yet bore a distant look.

For she knew quite well, this would be a showdown: a battle of egos.  

*This is an excerpt from what I’ve wrote. 

What Different Really Is 

If being an INTP sucks!? 

I don’t really know. 

All I know is that I lived differently than most people and no one could understand me. 

It is like hoping someone could understand but, no, no one does and it ain’t fun. 

Not being able to communicate on emotional level and most feelings are so frustrating—and never gonna understand the depths of it like most people wanted to convey to me. 

So, I’m just gonna sit here and do my thing like nothing just happen a while ago. 

My friend, a best friend, closest to me, an  ununderstandable a bit to me, was talking about certain someone. 

I was like: 

Huh!? 

Her: Do you remember him? 

Sorry the name isn’t familiar. 

So, this is about the little guy friend that wanted to have a relationship with her. 

I, however, doesn’t even have a clue to react, so I end up laughing. 

I feel like crazy, but she laughed anyway.

 I really have no idea I’m so bad about the emotional side of things. 

So, if you wanted to know about your personality type check out the Meyers-Briggs personality test and you’re good to go. 

To be honest, it wasn’t that bad to know more about yourself and to know how to improve it. Nothing beats self love. That is love yourself before loving your neighbors(that is someone you know). 

Beautiful Together 2

Partners 

Have you seen how all of us tend to look only at someone else’s appearance and tend to over look  good character that others might have possessed.  

So yeah, sometimes, but being able to get along that good to someone is more awesome than forcing yourself to someone. 

It may not come with those sparks and all, but it’s all worth it. 

A friendship that will last is way better and less complicated than jumping into someone you barely know. 

So again I spied these two again and felt giddy about it, because they were just behind my back lately talking with about some random stuffs. 

Like a good ols friends they are. 

It’s so cute knowing that someone could actually jive so naturally without even trying. 

Not with those crazy sort of attraction but of pure friendship with each other. 

They may be friends but I actually find them cute. 

Laughing in sync like they were in the same worlds, sharing stories and stuffs, doing crimes together(that is bullying someone), and most of all laughing for the same things. 

It may just be a normal conversation and talking but still I wanted to know, would they fall for each other in the near future or continue to be close friends? 

Never Be Lonely

Life is to be spent but only a few seems to spend it good. Now as a grown  up woman of twenty-something most if the people around my age have settled down, have a good job, or taking a post graduate degree. 

Knowing the deep desires of human heart, a simple woman would want a family on her own and someone to love for the rest of her life. It is a fact and most of us women have dreamed of that. Well, most likely or definitely others might say. Only that no matter how much we seek those dreams, reality always turn us. It is not what we expect and what we really hoped for. Finding out what is only the best for our hearts content and ignoring our surroundings, even those people who even cared about us. But in the end, still all our hopes fail with loneliness unphatomable. 

So, how can we stop this loneliness to surface even for a single minute? All girls are lonely, women are very lonely nowadays, even before. Is it now impossible to be contented and happy? 

All I can say is, girls or even boys, that happiness is a choice and I believe that. Even if I’ve never been a happy person growing up, I’ve learned it in a hard way. It never stops us from being lonely though but let us be truly happy. Choose happy never sappy. With love of course. 

As a woman it is really borne with us, even for men, to have a company throughout our lifetime. It is embeded deep into the human soul and cannot be denied. Even a wounded soul, scarred as long as she could remember, hopeless because she long for romance and company for the rest of our lives. We know this is true and is not easy to let go, other who learned it in a difficult and hardest way knew that being yourself is enough. For another person cannot give what we truly desire. A love in return the way we loved. All romantic and true.

 As long as we hold ourselves higher than the one who deserve all our love. We will never be happy single. For some who been there, happiness is being single. Since we can choose our own happiness. We are even free to choose Jesus each day. 

God really manifest himself in perfect life through Jesus, he is never lonely all his days on earth. He knows all, above all things. He can pick the right person for us. Why can we not trust him? He love us more than we could ever imagine. Those happy couple we know loved him first. 

Nothing could separate us from his love, not even deep loneliness. What we longed for, he can give. Why not give our love to him first? He deserve it all. Trust him in his choosing for your life. In that way you could truly be happy. 

This is my walk, wondering why am I lonely for so long as I could remember. But today I noticed how I never felt that loneliness. How did I live not feeling lonely? I’m not with another though, I live in a broken family but all this love I felt is because I know that my God loves me. He has a wonderful life in store for me. So why not live in pure joy. Not that I looked so happy but my heart is full and contented.

God bless His name!

Failure should be temporary

A cost of enjoying life too much. 

When life is meant to be enjoyed. Others seems to enjoy it too much, making every single day, worthwhile. Enjoying the things you like most and neglecting what is real. Even if this “real life” thing is a thing of this world like most people have dreamed of and you never dream of, it still want us to fit in wanting us to be like the “world.” 

Hopefully, those who fail to be “in” in this world are said to be the failures of the society. The people that good people wanted to eliminate. Though some of those tried and failed because everyone discourage them for being not like them. 

We have what we looked up to become and expectations held for us from those around us. If only, we are flexible enough to understand what they imply. 

Since today, there have been a lot of things that could help us understand what we want to be in the future— but is there something inside you that gives you thrill and you are passionate about? If there is? Think about it many times and dream of becoming what you really want to be. 

Be free to dream. Dare to be different and become what you aspire to become someday. If those were for you, it will come in the times you expect it less. 

The world awaits for someone like you! 

Misery

Not for you but still you hold. Not yours but still pretended it’s yours or will be yours. Might be yours someday you thought. All hope and losing because he is not yours to hold. Still pretended he is yours, hoping he is yours.

None came by or you just pretend he came. He went the other way because he’s not meant to be yours yet you still hope for maybe once. Will he be? Just can’t be!? Why can’t he be? 

If you just knew from the start it will never be, then why did it even start!? Questions, questions and more questions. Discovering life won’t be the way it will be or will be. Hopes and ideals that went wrong because the truth is just so good.

Seen this end and still continue to move; feeling odd and ripped, yet pretended to be alright. Moving on because it is right and it must be done. It should be done to continue living even if the world means no and the pain seems right. 

Some have done it right even if they wore the scars deep. Those smiles that seems so easy.

Life continues and you moved on like nobody notices because that is life.